I AM...

I realised that I have not written anything about myself...like my character, my habits, etc etc... So I decided to write a short post on it...cos I am supposed to be getting back to my studies...

I was listening to a song by Hillary Duff called "I am" and I felt that I could sooo relate to the song cos I am exactly like the way it has been described in the song....Hence, this is the simplest way to describe myself...Just read the lyrics...

I'm an angel, I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There's so many things I am

Chorus:
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I'm someone filled with self-belief
I'm haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am

Chorus:
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am

Chorus:
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am...

Yup, that's me alright. Listen to the song if u can. But warning: it is a typical teenager song...might not suit everyone's taste...

UPDATE:

After reading the post again and other people's comments, I have decided to be more specific. So to everyone: this is who I really am....*ahem ahem*

1. Depending on how you treat me...I can be a really nice or a really mean person.
2. I can be very childish at times.
3. I have horrible mood swings...better think twice before irritating me when I am not in a good mood.
4. I have a habit of complaining.
5. I do not take things so seriously as some people think.
6. I do tend to put others before myself.
7. I am quite a responsible girl.
8. I am quite trustworthy.
9. I tend to be insensitive at times.
10. I hate routine...I prefer doing new things every time.
11. I simply love to go out.
12. I love to observe people...AND my observations are pretty ACCURATE.
13. I procrastinate a lot by the way.
14. I am very very lazy...NOT hardworking as some people think.
15. I tend to get confused sometimes...NOT everytime.
16. I am very clumsy....tend to get bruises fairly regularly.
17. I have NO self-discipline whatsoever by the way.
18. But I have good self-control.
19. I am quite practical.
20. I have a lot of self-doubts.
21. I hate sports.
22. I do alot of stupid things...which I am not going to elaborate cos it is embarrassing.
23. I love music....cannot live without it.
24. I don't really argue but if I get provoked, then I would not think twice about arguing and raising my voice and talking back.
25. I can be really sarcastic.
26. I am quite impatient actually.
27. I get bored really easily.
28. I tend to gossip a bit...
29. I do get hyper...though I look half-dead most of the time.
30. I can be crazy.
31. I tend to talk alot nonsensical things at times..
32. I take a long time to trust someone.
33. I take a long time to open up...period..
34. I am really picky about things..especially food and clothes.
35. I am quite unselfish.
36. I can be a really sweet girl.
37. I worry alot.

Well....these are all I can think of right now. I think these are more than enough to give you a clearer picture of me. So once again...you have just familiarised with Shreosi's personality..*smiles broadly*...

The "Reason"...

Have you ever wondered how things would have been if they turned out differently?

Have you ever wondered where you could have been...or what you could have been doing right now?

Have you ever wondered how different your life would have been if you got to know some things much earlier?

Have you ever wondered how different your life would have been if u said some things much earlier?

Have you ever wondered how you would end up in the future?

Have you ever wondered how it would be to live in your friend's shoes?

Have you ever wondered about all the different possibilities that can take place in your life...especially when you have nothing better to do??

Guess...we all complain about our own lives...n start wondering about how things would be if only situations were different. But I guess...even if it seems horrible, I believe everything happens for a reason. Though that reason would only be visible to u many years later. When it does come, you would realise why some events had taken place and why they turned out to be the way they had. Everything makes sense then.

Oh well...though things never happens the way one wants it to be...we should jz be thankful for whatever we have and wait patiently for the day we would see or feel the "reason" behind everything....

The Look...

She sits with her book,
opened at a particular page,
but from the look,
she has at this stage,
her mind seems very engaged.

Faraway places,
beautiful sceneries,
wonderful people,
are all she can think about,
wanting to embrace,
without a single doubt.

She wants to explore,
wants to enjoy everything,
anything,
as she finds her life,
a complete bore.

But she has no choice,
she has to hear,
that small little voice,
asking her not to ignore,
and bear,
with this a little bit more.

With a deep sigh,
she tries,
to cut the slack,
and bring herself back.

So she sits with her book,
opened at a particular page,
trying her best,
to concentrate at this stage...

That time....

Its that time of the year again.....which all students dread....the time when the final year exams are jz around the corner!! Well to be more exact, they are jz one month away for me.

The whole cycle starts again...as it does every single year....sleeping late, getting stressed, mood swings (happens to me alot), trying to make sense of what is going on (in studies tat is), trying to finish up all the assignments due, having an outbreak (pimples) all over my face which makes me look extremely gross, walking around like a zombie due to lack of sleep, trying my best to concentrate and even better..trying my best to study.

As it is, for me, the nearer the exams the lazier I get. The more I tend to slack and the more I tend to get distracted. My mind tends to wander away when I study...thinking about things which are sooo not important. No matter what other people say, my self-discipline is jz pathetic...or non-existent for that matter. I always, always, need a push. And as you can surely tell, pushing myself is a rather difficult job. If I don't push myself, I would not study at all. Maybe I need someone in the form of my mother...that would work wonders....Sadly, that is not possible. So I have to rely on myself.

I also have this habit of loosing my papers as the exams come nearer. Somehow, they go missing and I can never find them. The best part is, when the exams are over and I am clearing my things, those same papers that went missing, magically reappear....

I would have also gotten an award for 'the world's most distracted person'..if there was such an award. It doesn't take me long to take distracted. Beautiful weather or good music or INTERNET or chatting or good novels...and the list goes on and on and on....I simply cannot study in the university library unlike others. I tend to get distracted by the people passing by or the people sitting around me...imagine that...So I am usually stuck in my room. Not that studying in my room works that much..at least it is more conducive than in the library in my opinion.

Reading books bore me to death..especially academic books. However, I don't really have a choice as all the subjects I am taking require me to do extra readings. As it so happens, after about 5 minutes of reading, I tend to fall asleep. Then I wake up after 5-10minutes and start reading again...and again I fall asleep. I take a loooonggg time to finish one chapter of my textbook.

Due to all these, my progress is usually very, very slow. So I have no choice but to sleep late and make sure that I can finish at least most of my work for that day. Hence, I walk around like a zombie and get mood swings. Not to mention, pimples pop out all over my face. But somehow, I usually manage to finish everything and be more or less prepared for my papers....

Well, this is the way I prepare myself for my exams...though they don't sound so...uhh..encouraging... it works for me. As it is quite obvious, I got distracted as usual...and wrote this random post...ok then...got to get back to my books!(sadly)...