Tuesday, October 28, 2008

You...

As usual, I was stoning in office as there was no work and to top it all even my supervisor was on leave. So what I did in the office for 9 hours? I wrote a poem, which I am going to share, and also read random blogs. This poem was a bit difficult to write as I just cannot do romance. Anyways, I tried as I had all the time in the world. So here it is..

Your hand
Held out for me,
Waiting as patiently
As you can be,
While I stand
Hesitantly,
Knowing not
What I sought.

Slowly,
My hand
Found yours,
As I took a chance
In this romance.

Your smile
Your steady hand
Your unwavering confidence
Guiding me through
This unsteady land,
Never once judging
Never once complaining.

And then you whisper,
The very three words
In my ear,
The words
I thought I would never hear.

You are the light
Overtaking the night,
You are the heat
Covering the cold
Like a sheet.

You came along
When something was not right,
And like a beautiful song
You made everything feel right.

I wonder,
If I deserve
The love
You shower,
But you never let me down
As you turn
My world around.

Though
I still have doubts,
Though
We still collide,
One thing is for sure
I cannot live without
You by my side.

I pray,
Every single day
The love will never die,

And we would never say
Goodbye,
I pray,

We will go far
And just remain the way
We are.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Retail therapy...

..A great way to chillax (chill + relax) and totally distress. I know all the girls out there know this already and must be wondering what’s new. What is new is that I hardly do retail therapy. I admit I am a control freak (not stingy). I rarely buy things on impulse. That changed when my friend, whom I met after 10 years, invited me to go shopping with her. I took up on the invitation as I badly needed a boost from my ultra hopeless and boring life and also get away from the problems for a while.

So we met last Saturday and had our lunch first. The lunch, I should add, was pretty good. She introduced me to this place and it is really cool. Really nice decorations and nice ambience. I am definitely going back there again one day. Then she told me there were sale in one of the shopping centres and we hurried there. There were huge discounts on bags, shoes, clothes, u name it! I managed to get permission from my mum (as I am banned from buying things as I have too many) to get a bag once I saw a few bags which I liked. For once, I did not care about the price, well in the sense increased my budget, and got myself a bag! That thrill of letting go for a bit and buying something is totally unexplainable. I was completely happy at that moment. I helped my friend choose a bag also and then we proceeded to the shoes. We went crazy seeing the 70% discounts. Sadly, whichever pairs I liked, they did not have my size. However, it was still fun just checking them out. After that, we checked out other sections and went totally goo-goo ga-ga over some of the things.

After 6 hours of non-stop shopping/window shopping, we decided to stop as our feet were hurting badly. Blame it on the heels. All-in-all I thoroughly enjoyed myself. It did not make my problems go away or dramatically changed my life. But I did realise after so long, my friend and I had similar tastes and had the best 6 hours in a long time. So for all the control freaks out there, let go once in a while…it works wonders!

Thursday, October 02, 2008

His..Her..

I just felt like writing something and it ended up being very sad.. :( neways here it goes...



He looked back,
For the very last time,
Wishing she would turn,
As she waited in the line.

His face,
Betrayed nothing,
That would seem,
Out of place.

He could not show,
The acute pain,
He was feeling,
In his heart,
He could not bear,
To be apart,
But he did not know,
If it was right,
As he was not alright.

But he had to know,
One last time,
Before he let her go,
This was right,
If she was alright.

He yearned,
But she did not seem,
To feel the same way,
As she walked away,
Without a concern,
Just like a dream,
So surreal,
So unreal.

He left,
Saying goodbye,
To a love,
He will never forget,
Even if he tried.

She knew,
He was waiting,
For her to turn,
But that was something,
She could not do.

Her face,
Betrayed nothing,
That would seem,
Out of place,
As she waited in the line.

She could not show,
The acute pain,
She was feeling,
In her heart,
She could not bear,
To be apart,
But she did know,
This was right,
Even if it was unfair,
Even if she was not alright.

She let him go,
Wishing him all the happiness,
In the world,
As she did so.

She yearned,
To see him,
One last time,
As she came to the end,
Of the line,
Instead she pretended,
She did not care,
Did not feel the same way,
And walked away,
Just like a dream,
So surreal,
So unreal.

She said goodbye,
To a love,
She will never forget,
Even if she tried.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Crush

I attempted to write a song but I think it ended up being more of a poem. So anyways, please read n let me know how it is..It is called "Crush"...


You walk right past me,
Perfectly oblivious,
To what you do to me,
How much more obvious,
Do you want me to be,
To show you,
How I feel.

Your smile,
Leaves me breathless,
Your eyes,
Leaves me mesmerised,
Just looking at you,
Leaves me speechless.

Why oh why,
Do I feel this way,
Why oh why,
You make my day,
Why oh why,
My heart beats fast,
When you are close by.

Look at me,
Look at you,
Can’t you see,
That’s what,
I want you to do?

I promise,
You won’t regret,
I promise,
You won’t forget,
Just look at me,
Why don’t you,
Just look at me.

You walked past,
I kept hoping,
And suddenly you smiled,
A beautiful smile,
I just kept staring,
All this while,
And praying,
This moment will last.

Why oh why,
Do I feel this way,
Why oh why,
You make my day,
Why oh why,
My heart beats fast,
When you are close by.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Random thoughts

How long can a person wait?

How much can a person trust someone?

What can be done if the person is unable to adjust?

How much can a person tolerate?

Is a person with a changed mindset still called a good person?

What happens if the person is not able to fit back in?

What if the person feels restricted?

What if the person gets so restless to the point of becoming lazy?




Should this person still quietly wait and hope…?


Just some random thoughts....

Monday, July 28, 2008

Another chapter closes...

I was looking through my old diary (yes, I used to keep diary when I was in school), and turned to the last entry I ever made...



Date: 28.6.05


I am going to this uni in Perth. I am going to live all on my own. I am soo excited and at the same time nervous! I am going to start a new journey in life. I just hope that things will go well for me and I would be able to face all the challenges! I still have a lot of shopping to do...


Love,
Shreosi.



I smiled as I read this entry made 3 years ago. Little did I know at that time, my 3 years in Perth was going to be my most memorable experience in my entire life. Living in Perth all on my own has taught me a lot of things and I grew from a shy, unconfident, sheltered 18-yr-old person to a more matured, more confident, more communicative person. I know some people still have doubts about my communication skills but trust me..I am much better than I used to be.

I was blessed with this really good group of friends who accepted me for the way I was and tolerated me for the past 3 years. I was able to share anything and everything with them. We laughed, we cried, we gossiped, we quarreled and then we made up again. They might not know this but they have made an impact in my life. From them I have learnt to open up. From them I have learnt that it is totally alright to voice out my opinions. From them I have learnt fashion. They were always there for me through both my bad and good times and have given me good advises from time to time. From them I have learnt how to have fun. I have also found someone to lean on when times got rough and also showed me how to be truly happy and be positive in times of uncertainty. I want to take this opportunity, through my blog, to thank all of them. I love you guys alot! :)

I met different types of people from different backgrounds with different points of view. It was very hard at first but I slowly learnt to tolerate and broadened my perspectives of certain things. I have learnt to be more independent and now I am proud to say, I am able to rely on myself. Time management was also an issue that I had to tackle.

There were many ups and downs. There were a lot of dramatic moments which I had never experienced till I came to Perth. Though they weren't good moments, it brought some sort of dynamism in my life..which was lacking before. I had a lot of fun too. I went for many parties and did things which I would not have done had I remained at home.

I have officially graduated and now have left Perth for good. Though I feel sad and missing Perth terribly, I would never forget the memories that I have. Living in Perth have changed me into a better person and I am really thankful that I was given this opportunity to study there.

A chapter in my life story closes as I have graduated. But one thing is for sure, I will always always remember this chapter. Since life goes on, another chapter will open soon where I would be entering the workforce...Again, I am both nervous and excited as I begin this new journey through life. I will keep you guys updated on what's going to happen next! :)

Thursday, July 10, 2008

....389 14 7 18 9....


!.[*('{~"ME"~}')*].!



"SMS!"

"My Look"
"Kung Fu Master"

"Holiday"
"I really like these sun glasses"
"Awwww sooooo Cute"

"An evening in Perth"

"Bollywood"
"Interested"
"Intrigued"
"Hungry"

"Mysterious"

"Pondering"
"Lost
"Oh yeaa!"
"Rides
"Thinking"
"Joy"
"Laughter"
"More Laughter"


MUAHH!!! Thats me!
;)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

...Shhhh....

I was "verbally" tagged and the person who tagged me would not leave me alone till I wrote this..hehe..and since I am taking a break from my studying anyways I might as well do it. Here are a few of my secrets...

1. I absolutely LOVE anything sweet! I got a bad case of sweet tooth.

2. I am a perfectionist. If something is under my responsibility, I want it to be perfect.

3. I can learn a new song very fast and I can sing it back to you exactly as it is sung.

4. I can remember people's faces and events extremely well. I can't remember people's names or the names of places for that matter.

5. I can remember conversations too. I have no problem in recalling what someone told me a year ago.

6. I can be so insensitive sometimes that it scares me.

7. I am a romantic at heart. I don't tend to show it but sometimes I do like all that mushy-gushy stuff..though not all the time.

8. I have a phobia for exams ever since primary school.

9. My mind goes completely blank (which is rare) and I will start smiling ridiculously (which is again rare) at the sight of my cuddly bear.

10. I absolutely HATE rain! I find rain very depressing. Not to mention it gets cold and harder to travel around AND my clothes gets wet!

Well, if you do not mind sharing 10 of your secrets, then go ahead and write about it. I am not going to tag anyone "verbally" nor online..hehe :P

Friday, June 06, 2008

"Interesting" convos...

It is just 4 days away from my exams and here I am updating my blog...oh well..I deserve a break once in a while right?? Anyways, a few weeks ago, my Uni organised a fundraising campaign to raise funds for this new building they are building and also to sponsor scholarships to students (*gawd sounds like an advertisement*). Since they were paying damn good money for helping them out, I eagerly signed up for it and even went through a phone-interview. All the chosen candidates had to go through 2 full days of training (more like lectures). We were pretty much drilled into what we were supposed to do and then we started on our "jobs". It was more like a tele-marketing sort of thing where each one of us are supposed to ring up the Alumni members and "converse" with them for a few minutes (or networking they say) before bringing up the donation bit cos obviously no one would want to donate if you just called to ask for money. I am telling you these tele-marketing people are really smart. They have different strategies and tactics to work around a person's mind and I am proud to say I picked up some of the skills..hehe..

So you imagine..me...a so-not-a-conversationalist doing this job. I thought I was pretty much dead as it requires alot of my brainpower to start convos with people. But I was surprised at myself..I did manage to do reasonably well according to my standards that is. I talked to many different types of people..some really nice, some rude, some very talkative, some not so talkative like me, some really helpful while some not so. I was really amazed how people actually opened up on the phone. I mean after all, they were talking to a complete stranger i.e me. I had really good convos with some people and I had really "interesting" ones too. I also found out it is much easier asking men for money than women..the women I had spoken to were damn stingy..I am serious...I want to share some of the "interesting" convos that I had with some people...and it just so happens that all the convos were with men..

Prospect #1: Pakistani guy who did his MBA course in my Uni. I was happily talking about India and Pakistan and what not with him. I talked to this guy for at least 15min and at the end of it when I brought up the topic about the letter, which the Alumni was supposed to receive telling them about the campaign, he said he didn't receive it. So this means:
1) I wasted my precious 15min talking to this guy.
2) he would not donate a single cent.

And what do you know, I was right!!Instead he wanted to know more about graduate courses in Uni and all that. So while I was telling him how to get this info, this what happened:
He: Sorry what is your name?
Me: *told him my name*
He: Oh I see, my name is --
Me: Uh ok..*obviously I know his name..I addressed him using his name*
He: Nice to meet you
Me: Nice to meet you too *have no idea where is this going...*
He: Do you have a nickname or something?
Me: Umm no..everyone calls me by tat name
He: Oh ok. When you send me an email about the courses I will get your name
Me: *What on the earth is he thinking* Oh no no..the Uni will email you not me
He: Oh ok *sounding a bit disappointment for gawd knows wat reason*
So after that, I thought I should probably hang up and call up better prospects. I said my goodbye and all that "sugary" stuff we were supposed to say..

Prospect #2: This guy, my dad's age, has his own accounting firm. The moment I introduced myself, he said he wasn't interested but I managed to turn him around by saying I wanted to just have a chat with him (*form of strategy*). Since it is related to the field that I am doing, I had no problem in striking a convo. I was actually having a nice chat with him. Of course, the bonus was that he even donated in the end..hehe..At the end of the convo when I took note of his details and all..this is how the convo went:
He: It is a pity you are leaving if not we could have been friends
Me: *taken aback* oh well if you don't mind I can keep in touch with you through email? *I was thinking of networking only*
He: Sure sure, I don't mind. Please send a picture along with your email.
Me: *again taken aback* Haha..but why do you want a picture of me?
He: So that I know whom I am talking to..*which he had a pt bt I wasn't willing to entertain*
Me: *And I had to say this..*Oh haha..If I send a pic of mine then you also have to send a pic of urs too with your email! *realising too late this might have sounded wrong*
He: Sure!I would do that! *very willingly*
I finally ended up the call on that note. Happy that I got something at least.

Prospect #3: This guy working somewhere I forgot. His daughter is a student of this Uni also and doing the same course as me. Somehow he sounded a bit distant but I just thought the line must be a bit messed up. So I was happily chatting away with him when this happened:
He: *suddenly* just hold on a min..
Me: Ok *hearing him talking to someone in the background*
He: *After a while* Sorry about that..the cops pulled me over just now
Me:*Did I just hear it correctly..cops?COPS??* Oh..uhh..how come? *lost for words*
He: I think I was waiting for too long in the line. Didn't know the cops would come around this side. It is just a quiet street. Luckily I wasn't fined.
Me: Oh i see..I am really sorry...
He: So what were you saying again?
So I went on..the guy was willing to talk and I had a good feeling he would give..
Me: So a one-off of $100 is acceptable to you?
He: Yea sure, let me just pull over and take out my credit card..
Me: *Yippee* Ok sure.
He: You should be proud of yourself. You managed to get $100 out of me.
Me: *Just laughed..what else was I supposed to say..*
In the end I did apologise though for talking to him while he was driving. He should have mentioned it in the beginning..

Prospect #4: Retired cranky man. Had to go straight to the point and managed to get money in 2min flat!! Here is how it went after I introduced myself:
He: Are you calling for money?
Me: Well yes but that is not the main issue. I also just wanted to have a chat..
He: Oh pls stop all that nonsense. What is this abt?
Me: *pissed off and shocked but still maintaning my calm composure* Ok well there are 2 kinds of funds...
I went on to describe one of them first which he sounded like he was interested and when I described the second one..
He: I am not interested in tat one. Is $20 enough for donating in the first fund.
Me: Well yes thats enough *though obviously he could have given more*
He: You want my credit card details rite?My credit card no is...
Me: Just hold on a min!! *the stupid system had too many buttons*
He: Hurry up..cmon cmon!!
Me: Ok Ok!
He: You know how much of trouble I am getting into for giving you my credit card no??I am supposed to be somewhere else right now.
Me: *That's it..he crossed the line* Well, if you had told me earlier you were going somewhere I would have called back on another day.
He: It didn't turn out tat way now did it??hehe
Me: *he dared to even laugh*Ok sir, your credit card no pls?
He: Well I would like to donate $50 (it was $20 before *rolling my eyes*) to this fund and my no is -----
I asked him all the relevant details after that and I thanked him and kept down the phone. That was the shortest phone convo I ever had.

So these are the few "interesting" ones I had. They are somemore but I think this post is long enough and I think I have wasted enough time already...I enjoyed my work though even if it was not that pleasant everytime. I loved the people I worked with. They were awesome!

Ok ok now time to get back to work..hehe..

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Changes..

She looks from a distance,
At events surrounding her,
Making her wonder,
Her mere existence,
In this ever- changing place.

She is confused,
Yet amused,
At the outcomes,
And at the unexpectedness,
Of it all,
Making her smile,
For awhile,
A smile of irony,
A smile of bitterness.

She thought,
She could never go wrong,
But this was not so,
As things changed,
As she went along.

She is unsure,
Of the promises kept,
Of her ability to accept,
And adapt,
To everything new,
To which she has no clue.

She desperately seeks,
The answer in her heart,
Is everything going to be torn apart?
Or am I going to disappear,
And no one will ever hear?